Nope, I Didn’t Shed a Tear…
Does that make me a heartless bitch mum? Heads up, it’s one of those posts. Yep, an honest one about my thoughts and feelings about B starting school. There are loads of school posts about at the mo. I guess it’s to be expected right. It’s a whole new chapter for little ones just starting, and for the mums and dads too.
And he’s off!
I have to say though, I’ve found it all a little underwhelming. And it’s had me question myself. Why aren’t I crying and blubbing into my morning Red Bull? Don’t I care that my baby boy is starting school. Don’t I feel sad that he is no longer a baby? I was expecting more! A huge rush of mum-emotion and tears. And it hasn’t come. The only tears I’ve been crying are at the thought of trying to cover 12 plus weeks of bloody school holidays.
Why I Don’t Feel Sad About School
After much thinking, I’ve come to a few conclusions that I want to share with you as to why I wasn’t a teary mess last week. Can you relate to any or is it just me?
1. My boy is no longer a baby. Nope, he isn’t. He is four years old and more than ready for school. If I wanted to cling on to the baby days, I’d have another baby. Sure there are lots of cute and lovely things about having a tiny baby. But there are lots of bloody tough times, and on the whole, I’m not sad to see that stage behind us! You can read more about my maternity leave fun times here.
2. It’s the start of a new era. Yes, it is! But it doesn’t have to be all gloom and doom. I’m actually really excited about this next stage of little b’s life.
3. He is ready for school. B has been ready for school for a long time now. He’s had a lovely time at nursery and he’s grown in to a beautiful little boy. I’m looking forward to watching him develop and grow over the next few years.
4. I hated school. I don’t feel sad about b starting school because this should be a happy time for him. I hated school until I was around 16 years old. I spent a lot of time feeling anxious and upset. I don’t want that for b. I want this time to be happy and special. I was always told school is the best years of your life. And at the time I didn’t get that at all. I do now and I really regret not having had a happy school life. I wish I’d been happy at school.
5. I want to get involved. Following on from the point above, I want to get involved with school life and enjoy it as much as I can with b.
6. It’s not a huge change from nursery. B’s been at nursery since he was 11 months. You can read about our journey here. He used to do four full days and we’d pick him up after work. I’ve never been exclusively at home with him, other than our Friday together. I will miss our Fridays but I’m also looking forward to some time to get things done around the home and on the blog!
So there you go. I’m looking forward to this new chapter of our lives. I have no idea how we will juggle all the holidays but I’m sure it will work out somehow.
Do you have a little one that just started school? How do you feel about the change?